Current mood:	contemplative
Current music:	snow and slush stillevermore

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Christianity aside, this is still one of my very favorite songs.
It got me through a very tough period where i couldn't talk to anyone about what i was going through, and i could relate to this song. Now it reminds me that i got through that and i'll get through this.
I don't think i hear "Jesus" when it's said in the song, i just hear/feel love.

He - Jars of Clay (GOOD).mp3

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last night i dreamt many things, one of which woke me...
i was battling a demon on sorts, possible They Who Shall Not Be Named, possibly myself. Possibly one in the same.
I began to lay down onto a chair, and thought nothing of it... figured i was just tired of relaxing... until the feeling of laying down began to get harder and heavier and i felt as though i was being pushed/pulled down and through. there was something in me on me and/or around me and i my ability to breathe became impaired. Like a weight becoming increasingly heavy tight hard, and my physical self lost control.
Soon enough, all i had to fight was my will.
I remember crying and wanting to scream (not sure if i did/could or not), because it was taking all i had. I was winning, but it was drawing out everything i had.
I woke up before i found out if i won or not...
this dream is probably quite obvious, and i've yet to be able to let it go. I am running out of places to hide.
The other dreams were bits and pieces of closure.