Current mood:	pensive
Current music:	home - bnl

i have no idea why anyone likes me as a friend, let alone anything else.

i need to get over this.
i am afraid to agree with people's interest in me. any kind of interest, be it friendship, more than frienship, more than more than friendship. I need to, instead of putting up the brick wall with the sign on it that says "you're allowed here, but i don't know why you'd want to be here" and start thinking about it.
Start allowing myself to be intersting. look at the people who choose to surround themselves with me, who invest such precious energy and love into me and getting to know me and loving me. I should give them all more credit than to think they're just around me to pity me, and seeing as i think *they* are interesting, i am going to start thinking about why i am valuable and interesting and worth knowing.
maybe i'll like myself a little bit more if i allow myself to BE liked.
even loved.